Act 3: I feel the guilt

I have a bad feeling in my stomach lately. You know that feeling you get when you know something is wrong and not right. It’s like I have knot in my stomach that just won’t go away. I’m having trouble sleeping at night, but I don’t wake up. I just feel almost exhausted in the morning. I feel like I haven’t slept all night. I know I am sleeping, though. The gilt from Macbeth murdering Duncan is dawning on me. I know Macbeth is scared, probably more scared than I am. I try to put on a face of how I don’t care but I really do. I don’t want Macbeth to see me worried. My lover has too many things going on in his life now, that he can’t worry about the past. I can take all the stress for Duncan’s death. I know Macbeth wouldn’t have even done it if it wasn’t for me pushing him. I pushed him into doing it. I regret it immensely and I know it was wrong of me. Macbeth should be a man and take his own actions, but he is soft at heart and knows what is right and what is wrong. I am sick of playing this mean and cruel woman. I do have feelings and they are coming back to haunt me right now. I wish we wouldn’t have killed Duncan. I want to wash my hands clean of his blood and move on. However,I realize it is not that easy…